week 38 update

Well, I'm still pregnant..... ugh.

Have I said I'm over this???  Well, I'm over it.  

Doctor appointment this morning.... not getting my hopes up for any changes, but hoping and praying there will be some!

My belly is so big, none of my shirts fit!  

But there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  If he's not here before next Tuesday, I'll be induced.  So we'll have a new bundle of joy in a week or less!!! 

Hallelujah.

Week 37 Update

Baby is still growing... kicking, punching, and swimming.

Doctor appointment today.

Praying for progress.

In other news, we finally closed on our house.  We are no longer home owners (at least for several months). 

I had no idea that moving could be so stressful.... but moving while pregnant is the pits.

I think if I could take a long walk in the woods and let out a few good screams, I'd feel much better.

But it's too darn cold.

Week 36 Update

Well, I've made it another week.  And I'm happy to say that today I was able to come off of the medication and bed rest!  Now, let's have a baby!!! :)  I hope he decides to make his appearance soon... especially after all he's put us through.  He sure has been anxious to get here, and now he has the "A-Ok."

Baby this week:

- Jett is still packing on the pounds... about an ounce a day.  He should weigh almost 6 pounds at this point.  I hope they'll do an estimated weight at my ultrasound Thursday, if I make it to Thursday.

- Most of the downy covering over his little body has been shed.

- One week from today, he'll be considered full-term.

Mommy this week:

- I'm making it... barely.

- I had a fabulous sprinkle/diaper party Sunday.  Saturday night, I started having pretty strong contractions, really close together.  I was beginning to think I wouldn't make it to my shower.  But, after dinner, a bath, and laying down, the contractions subsided.  

- Still having some contractions, but nothing too painful or close together.  However, I'm hoping that they'll pick up, since I've stopped the medicine.

I have a doctor's appointment today, so we'll see what they say.

Please tell me when...

When will I be back to normal?  Hopefully SOON.

My husband doesn't believe me when I say, "We are NOT having any more babies."  He desperately wants a little girl. 

 But I'm DONE.  

Pregnancy is so hard.  Some women are born to have babies.  I always wanted to be one of those women.

When I was little, all I wanted to do was get married and have babies.  But it's a tough job.

It's so hard on your body... I'm a pretty tough girl, but this stinks!

I am ready to be back to normal.

For me, normal means:

- being able to see my feet

- being able to REACH my feet

- having an "inny" belly button again

- being able to squat or bend over and get back up with ease

- take a bath (and fit in the tub)

- get OUT of the tub 

- dry myself off after getting out of the tub (without having contractions and running out of breath)

- holding my Jase.... without a big belly in the way

- hugging my husband.... without a big belly in the way

- doing ANYTHING strenuous.  Bed rest is for the birds.

I'm counting down the days!!!

And I'll try to never complain again about cleaning house, washing clothes, and all that good stuff.  I'd rather be doing it than having to ask for help.

Week 35 Update

Today's my birthday... and I'll be spending it at the doctor.

But my sweet hubby did take the day off to spend with me and Jase.  After the doctor, he's treating me to lunch and a foot rub.  I cannot describe how utterly excited I am about that!!!

Baby this week:

- He's running out of room!!!  Weighing in at 5 1/4 pounds and measuring about 18 inches.

- No more somersaults, but his kicks and punches feel deadly at times!!

- His kidneys are now fully developed and his liver can process waste.

-Most of his basic physical development is complete.  Chances are he'd be just fine if born now, but we'll see if we can wait another week or so.

- He'll spend the rest of this time just packing on weight.

Mommy this week:

I'm hanging in there.  Lots more pressure, as he's head down and VERY low.  When I went last week for my ultrasound, the tech said, "Wow.  He's low.  If you sneeze too hard, you might just have a baby!"  Tell me something I don't already know.  One more week and I can stop the Procardia and home monitoring.  Then one week after that, I can come off of bed rest.... and we're walking this baby out!!!  

I'm SO MORE THAN READY to be back to normal..... I'll have a post coming soon about that.

Doctor's appointment today and Thursday.  I'll keep you posted on any new developments.

Week 34 Update

Sorry I missed last week's update, but that whole week is a blur... being in the hospital, on those crazy meds, there's no way I could've done a post.  So here goes....

Baby this week:

-Jett probably weighs close to 5 pounds (the ultrasound we had in the hospital last week estimated 4 1/2 pounds, so this is probably pretty accurate) and measures almost 18 inches.

-His central nervous system is maturing and his lungs are continuing to develop.  He did receive 2 steroid doses in the hospital to help with his little lungs.

-Before now, preterm labor was a big deal.  Now that we've reached the 34 week mark, chances are he'd be just fine if he decided to make his appearance.  But we'll hope he decides to stay put for a few more weeks.

Mommy this week:

-Still hanging in there.  Bed rest is NO FUN.  I have been cheating a little, but the doctor says I'm doing good.  No changes in dilation.  

-Going to the doctor twice a week from here on out... that should keep me busy.

Not Shaken

Last night, as I was siting in the bathtub (which is not even comfortable these days), just thinking, praying and listening to the peace and quiet, a song came to my mind.  

Even when my plans get turned upside down, He's always in control.  He's never shaken.

I am sinking in a river that is raging.

I am drowning

Will I ever rise to breathe again?

I wanna know why.

I just wanna understand.

Will I ever know why?

How could this be from Your hand?

When every little thing that I had dreamed would be 

just slips away like water through my hands,

And when it seems the walls of my beliefs 

are crashing down like they're all made of sand,

I won't let go of you now because I know

You're not shaken.

I am trembling in the darkness of my own fear.

All the questions with no answers, 

so grip me while I'm here.

And I may never know why.

Oh I may not understand.

But I will lift up my eyes,

and trust this is Your plan.

When every little thing that I had dreamed would be 

just slips away like water through my hands,

And when it seems the walls of my beliefs 

are crashing down like they're all made of sand,

I won't let go of you now because I know

You're not shaken.

When I am in the valley or the shadow of death

You're not shaken

You're not shaken

You're right here beside me

and You have never left

You're not shaken

You're not shaken

When every little thing that I had dreamed would be 

just slips away like water through my hands,

And when it seems the walls of my beliefs 

are crashing down like they're all made of sand

I won't let go of you now because I know

You're not shaken.